So close, but so far away

I have two weeks, 5 days until my due date; and i'm dying!

Not really, but if a person could feel joyfully miserable, that would be me right now! Pregnancy is a whole different kind of misery...I wanted this pregnancy more than anything, but experiencing it has put a whole new spin on sacrifice for me!

This is really hard!

Props to all those women who 'love' pregnancy!! cuz I hate it!

No, no, I don't hate it, I'm just really struggling with it.

I absolutely love the fact that this our little gift from Heavenly Father, and I love feeling him move and kick inside me...It has been so amazing, and I feel so incredibly blessed!

BUT -- I am struggling with having this little person suck the life force from me...

I now understand why being a mother is such a sacrifice...because it is!

I've given up my love of rock climbing, running, biking, and pretty much anything that involves self exertion on my part :) This has been a real struggle for me...all of those things are stress relief for me, and not being able to do them has really been taxing...I can't wait to run again!

Also, my focus has shifted from loving to read and write and dream, to thinking only about eating and resting and this little 'parasite' draining my energy! (for lack of a better word)

My hope is, and I hear it from every other mother-but I need to know for myself, that this sacrifice is worth it...cuz right now, I'm not so sure.

I'm scared and worried about motherhood. These last few months have been the struggle of my life to stay sane, not only for myself, but for Jess too. I feel so removed from life...

I guess I'm just looking for something to bitch about because I really have had a great pregnancy!

• No morning sickness
• a little nausea for a few weeks
• I've been able to stay relativity active
• and I'm still able to work

God truly has blessed me...I just can't wait till this time in my life is over...there is a light at the end of the tunnel! One week and five days away...!

Flyfishing at 9 months pregnant

I'm not gonna let a little round belly stop me from fishing!

It felt so good to get out and fish; it was great to be out in nature and enjoying the cool water over my swollen feet and ankles...

Although I only caught one fish, which was just a baby about 3 inches long, I didn't get skunked! (to all fisherman: isn't that all that matters?!)

I'm finding out flyfishing is just a little more difficult being pregnant ;) I can only throw about 20 casts or so, and then my arms and legs are toast and I have to take a break...also, trying to navigate the rocks and timber everywhere is a little more arduous having all that 'frontal' weight trying to trip me up and tip me over - hee hee hee.

But despite all of the challenges with me being pregnant, it was one of the most relaxing nights I've had in months; I slept all through the night, which I haven't been able to do for quite some time!

Pregnancy may slow me down, but I refuse to let it stop me!!

testing, testing, 123...

Hey this is kinda cool...I'll be making one for when the baby comes :)

It's offical; I've joined the club...

I can now say I have a blog of my own!

Welcome to it!

After talking with many people who have one, and them asking me why on earth I don't have my own, I've decided to jump off the bridge with 'em and start a blog!

But no promises on keeping it updated though ;) I'm a slacker that way!